Friday, July 17, 2015

Hiraeth

Once I left a letter
in the folds of a book
and forgot all about it.
Days after dust had gathered
when I pulled it out 
to survive one draughty afternoon,
out fell a square piece of
neatly folded paper. 
A letter I had stowed away
which you had written to me.
I do not remember you lover!
A blurry face peeks at me
from a crowd of faces
I've taken to various places
inside me.
Doorstep, foyer
nooks and crannies
Bed chamber or the attic.
I picked it up unknowing that
the smell of old memory 
lurked in the folds of your letter. 
Filling me with a longing
for a place I've never been
Or may be once in a dream
seen a tiny cottage on a lonely hill
with yellow lights in the window
and a silhouette of a woman
who hovers unsure, from room
to room, looking for a prayer book
in a cottage under somnolent stars.




Thursday, July 09, 2015

Trial and Error

Trial and error
The same rundown memory lane.
Here I go again!
Looking for the broken mirror
Housing my face from when
I committed my first mistake.
Trials and errors pile
Make me feel like
I've committed myself
To the folly of insane
In various grabs.
Each shard of the broken mirror
Adds to itself a new image
Of innocence lost
Bewilderment and shock
Old exasperation
New born resignation.
One more trial after
May be I will even catch
A glimpse of death
On the cracked surface. 

Tuesday, July 07, 2015

Kintsukuroi





The fact that nobody is perfect is as old an a stale bread on which molds of indifference have grown. If we were to meet each other, and if we were to become friends, may be even lovers at some point of time, I wouldn't console you by saying how your perfections are perfect to me. I wouldn't lecture you on our imperfections complementing each other. For me, your imperfections will be interesting. Discovering them will be like reveling in the glory of discovering long lost treasure. Knowing that you too have suffered, may be not in the  same way as I have and that you too have scars will not make me afraid of showing you mine. All the wounds, rotting flesh, healed scabs and raw pink skin, everything will be the places we go on dates. We will talk and talk till our mouths go dry and we are short of breath. You wouldn't think I'm ugly because I have scars. I wouldn't think you're an outcast because of your injuries. My fingers will tread upon your sutures, your eyes will travel over my hellholes. In knowing that we both have suffered, we will both be erroneous, slightly out of place and unique. And that is how two very imperfect people will leak into each other, melt into each other. That is how we will live again, become human beings again, in all our mistakes and failings.